26 Syawal 1431

Assalamualaikum everyone!

During Perdaus Eid celebration cum appreciation ceremony, there was a lil tazkirah session by ustadz. N I juz tot it'll b gd 2 share esp 4 myself 2 rmmbr wen i reread dis post. Basically d tazkirah was on Ramadhan, d Ramadhan dat juz passed. Were we able to menghayati Ramadhan? Ustadz sed..if let's say we went thru Ramadhan without thinking of our brothers and sisters in Islam out there who may not have any food to eat when we break fast, kite tak menghayati Ramadhan. If we are active in volunteering our services, mayb 2 masjid, helping out in community service n so on but never help our parents at home, kite tak menghayati Ramadhan. (Unfortunately, I can only rmmbr these 2 points...i knw ustadz mentioned something abt solat mlm oso but I cant rmmbr wat it's abt) So, basically, reflecting upon wat ustadz sed, it's relli something 2 knw dat I probably did not menghayati my Ramadhan at all. (hmm...i tink ustadz oso mentioned sumting abt like cant wait 4 Ramadhan 2 end n Syawal 2 cum...i tink ah..aiyo...i need 2 work on my memory..) oh ya!! ustadz sed sumting abt if we neva do our solat mlm like as if it's gonna b our laz solat, kite tak menghayati Ramadhan.

so, i relli, relli hope i'll b fortunate enough 2 meet Ramadhan again...insya-Allah, i'll make it a much better one and a memorable one...

so, anw, bsides the menghayati part, ustadz oso shared a bit abt like hw Ramadhan is kind of like a month 4 us 2 boost our iman and kinda set the path for the year until the next Ramadhan. means like we train ourselves 2 do good things, 2 dekatkan diri 2 Allah so dat wen Ramadhan ends, we shd stay consistent n not onli b a Ramadhani (hamba Allah time Ramadhan) but a Rabbani (hamba Allah all de time). I tink d tazkirah jolt me a lil bit more from my current world. So, I'm trying my bez 2 sort of get back wat i did during Ramadhan...no matter wat lil things i felt it was compared 2 mayb wat others were doing during Ramadhan, I feel dat it's still significant 2 me...insya-Allah, i'll try 2 b consistent...help me, ya Allah...

another thing abt Ramadhan is dat it sorts of teaches us time management. Like, we always check the timings for imsak n maghrib...so, we r always aware of de time...2 sort of countdown u knw? in other words, it also kind of trains us in our discipline, muz wake up b4 subuh 2 sahur n so on...After hearing all this, it's relli beautiful isn't it? how Allah arranged everything? It's juz simply amazing...

Finally, juz tot I share my reflections for the day..

-Why I want 2 b a gd muslimah:
2day, in sch, I was gg abt doing my normal routine, gg 2 class den went musollah 2 do my prayers...but sumhw, I dono, I juz felt happy n calm n positive...like wen I smile at d other sisters, it was a sincere smile, n I dono, de feeling is juz great...n I feel dat it has something 2 do wif me trying 2 improve myself, doing more than my normal routine, trying 2 do wat I used 2 do during Ramadhan...perhaps...I dono...but I feel dat weneva one is close 2 Allah, de feeling is relli nice...esp wen u place faith/trust in Allah...it's like actually, nothing's a problem...bcoz even if dere r obstacles, dey r actually tests 4 us 2 overcome 2 b a better n stronger person, insya-Allah...

oh wells...I juz hope my will is stronger n dat wateva gd things i do will last...coz i haf a bad habit of doing things halfway...give me strength ya allah...