14 Safar 1432 Hijrah

Salam to all! =)

Alhamdulillah, i'm in a good condition..life's not dat bz yet...or mayb datz juz bcoz im not making myself bz enuf..=/ not sure if datz gd or bad...gargh..

anw, i'm trying to piece back my self-esteem...i believe my outlook of myself used to be much better than now definitely..sumhow, along the way, i kinda fell...n realised dere wasn't many ppl 2 help me up...n i guess, i juz kept stumbling n falling...n after awhile, mayb i din try hard enough to get up...n mayb i 4got i had Allah to turn to...*sighs*

well, no matter wat now, i promise myself dat i will try my bez 2 stay positive from now on. confidence n self-esteem does make a lot of difference in a person. i have always known dat...but wen i fell, i guess my knowledge wasnt enough to overcome my lack of self-esteem.

Well, I'm just happy dat i have an opportunity to start afresh. at least now, i feel closer to my closest sister...=) i'm juz glad she neva gave up on me even tho we drifted apart at some point..i am blessed, aren't i? i cant blif de negative thoughts i used to think...but den agn, i drifted away from practically all my close frenz..wat do u xpect me to think? haix...ohwells..i juz knw now dat i should always treasure my family 1st...

anw, i've also made new frenz..tho im not so close to dem as how i used 2 b close 2 my close frenz...i'm glad im frenz wif dem...it warms my heart seeing my frenz having passion for islam...n it also helps me create dat environment for me 2 b a better person..insya-Allah...

it juz shows dat i shd always blif in Allah...He knws bez wat's gd 4 me..i'm sure..=)

well, piecing up my self-esteem is indeed not an easy feat...i have a feeling i mite get emotional at some times...but insya-Allah, i'll succeed. May I b a teacher who possess confidence, insya-Allah.

some laz words for myself: I will enjoy practicum!

I really want to believe dat..n i've told myself dat i'll say it everyday to believe it..I haf 5 wks to practicum...insya-Allah, i'll b more than ready by then...Allah will help me, insya-Allah.

I love you Allah..Thanks for everything..=)